13 June 2010

POINTS FOR NEW VLOG:

Things I dont want to forget about being fat:
1. Not being able to cross my legs
2. Having trouble in small shower
3. legs chafing
4. overall uncomfortable in myself
5. not being able to do things with partner
6. not wanting to be seen
7. constantly feeling hungry
8. being ashamed
Concerns:
1. catheter?
2. where will my canulla be inserted? and when?
3. will heparin be administered before or after surgery?
4. what pain medication will i be given?
5. my stretch marks. what if the surgeon sees them and realises i havent been this overweight for very long?
6. loose skin
7. stretch marks fading?
8. who to tell. who not to tell?
9. the gas after surgery. can you ask them to push on your stomach??
My thin list:
1. be able to cross my legs
2. wear jeans!
3. wear heels!
4. be able to go all day and night, and not be exhausted
5. get my spine fixed (surgery????)
6. be able to wrap a normal size towel around me
7. fit into my GPs chair
8. not be squishy in the car next to rhys when hes driving
9. wear stockings and garter!!!