So. My life is pretty much on hold at the moment. Some days I really cant even see the point of waking up. Because I don’t do anything. I sit at home and go online, do the housework, look for jobs, apply for jobs that I wont hear back from. Occasionally go to the workshop to do the books. And that’s about it.
But with only 33 days until my appointment with Dr Dolan, I feel like things are starting to get moving. I am…so…incredibly excited. I spend a lot of time watching people’s banding stories on youtube, and it just makes me want to do it. Right now. I’m sooooo terribly sick of waiting.
And at the same time I’m really scared that he’s going to tell me he wont perform the surgery on me. For some reason. I can’t see why there would be any reason to not go ahead with it. I spose it’s that old lack of self confidence. That someone will decline me just because of who I am.
I’m really hoping that the surgery can be booked pretty much dead on when my insurance goes through, on the 14th of august, which makes it 106 days. I’m looking forward to when its less than 100 days
The time has gone pretty fast, and snail paced at the same time. The time I’ve waited feels like nothing, but the time ahead of me feels like eternity.
But with only 33 days until my appointment with Dr Dolan, I feel like things are starting to get moving. I am…so…incredibly excited. I spend a lot of time watching people’s banding stories on youtube, and it just makes me want to do it. Right now. I’m sooooo terribly sick of waiting.
And at the same time I’m really scared that he’s going to tell me he wont perform the surgery on me. For some reason. I can’t see why there would be any reason to not go ahead with it. I spose it’s that old lack of self confidence. That someone will decline me just because of who I am.
I’m really hoping that the surgery can be booked pretty much dead on when my insurance goes through, on the 14th of august, which makes it 106 days. I’m looking forward to when its less than 100 days
The time has gone pretty fast, and snail paced at the same time. The time I’ve waited feels like nothing, but the time ahead of me feels like eternity.
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