So last night I was intending to make a new google account that was in no way associated with my other screen name, and only associated with ValhallaHawkwind...so I deleted my entire google account, and it even told me that it wouldn't delete videos...and i'd have to SIGN IN to my youtube account if I wanted to delete videos...

So I go to sign in to my youtube...and it wont let me. I can no longer access my youtube because the primary gmail email address no longer exists...even tho I was accessing the emails through my personal email...So just a warning kids. If you want to change your google accounts and gmail, make sure you make your new account first, link it to youtube...and then delete the account. So devo right now. I'm waiting for youtube to get in contact with me to see if they can give me back access. Don't think it's gonna happen tho :(

And in other fail news...I did a trial run of the pre-op diet yesterday. I had an optifast bar for breakfast...then had a vanilla shake at around 5pm (bad I know...I waited too long)...then had stir fried veggies which are on the allowed list, at about 6pm...then I had another bar almost right after dinner...and then I begged rhys to do a maccas run at 8pm and had a quarter pounder with large fries :( I totally caved. At least it was only practice. Ive tried to tell rhys that if I'm not ASLEEP by 9pm I will eat the entire contents of the fridge. And if i'm woken up in the middle of the night (he does late shifts and comes home around2am) you will wake up to me gnawing your arm off.

I get hungry at night. I feel wrong if i'm not full as a goog before I go to sleep...This is where I am going to struggle. And rhys doesnt seem to get it. I also get horrible hunger headaches. And serious irritability. When I'm hungry...I cannot deal with ANYTHING. But i'll get through it. I have to do it. It's going to be a huge learning curve for me ^_^;